He forgives my unbelief

The clock is ticking, the day seems to ended faster than usual.
My faith has been stretch and my heartbeat beating faster.
Everyday I'm waiting for a phone call that will put me to rest.
Each time I go to church, I waited for Pastor to say those confirmation so that I can end my anxiousness.
Each Altar call, I've waited for someone to lay hands on me and pray for me and confirm what God has spoken to me so that I may have peace.
Almost every night I say the same prayer and hoping He will answer me the next morning with a phone call.
I wasn't angry, I wasn't mad and I didn't blame Him for anything, but I was worried and I just realized though I had peace but I was still worry.

Yet, He wasn't angry with me and He didn't take His spirit away from me. He was actually drawing Himself nearer and nearer to me. He comfort my soul, give rest to my spirit and lifted me up.
Each day, faithfuly and gracefuly He speek words of encouragements and assurance. Reminded me of the things He did in the past for Abraham & Noah. Reminded me that even if I have a faith as small as a mustard seeds and say to a mountain to move from here to there, it will be moved! He told me that my faith has saved me.
He assured me with ways that only His spirit can do.
He put a smile on my face and in my heart. He gave me family & friends who supported me in prayers and who believe with me.

And though I have doubts, He never leave nor forsaken me. In fact, He came to me and say “I love you!” He came to me and in my spirit I can see Him smiled and welcome me in His arm while I was crying.
He wiped my tears and heal my wounded heart that was filled with worry and discouragement.

True enough, the confirmation didn’t come from the things I hoped it would come, but He confirmed His words & promises are yes and amen when Pastor used the same verses in His sermon on the last day of Revo conference. He assured me by allowing me to see in my spirit that I was standing on the stage during prayer service, sharing to many of how great God is and how He has provide me with a job! A job that only He can provide! A job that is the best for me and what I’ve actually wanted! And at that time His name will be lifted high, will be praised, will be shouted and glorified! People will see His glory! People will see that there is NOTHING impossible for God!!

And I know when that time comes, I will jump & I will shout praises unto Him more than now!

I can’t wait! I can’t wait for that time to come. I can’t wait to see Your glory shines and I can’t wait to tell the whole world what you have done!

Thank you for your faithfulness o Lord! Thank you for your forgiveness. Thank you for not giving up on me! Thank you for stretching my faith and thank you for dealing with my doubts so patiently. Thank you for making me an overcomer! Thank you for helping me to be wise and mature. Thank you for taking time to teach me your way. Thank you for giving me such a wonderful Pastors, leaders, sisters & brothers and family. Thank you for trusting me that much when I know I don’t deserve such trust! Thank you for the job that you’ll give me! Thank you for everything! Thank you o Lord! Thank you!!